
Artist: → Christina Sikora
{verse 1}
I tell myself it’s black and white
Either i’m too weak or i’m dying inside
If i told you the truth i’d be delusional
Today i’m sick but tomorrow i’m beautiful
Won’t even see the tip of the ice
Passing out in the shower will give me a high
I’m not losing enough of anything but my mind
But you don’t wanna hear it
I’m ‘pretty’, aren’t i?
{chorus}
Can’t tell you that i’m on the fucking floor crying in the bathroom
At the table staring at an empty fork like it’s a vacuum
Believe me i swear i’m okay, i’ll take up less space
God i wish it wasn’t this way
But i’m only seeing stars because i have to
{verse 2}
I drink three cups of coffee a day
So i don’t feel myself start to slip away
And maybе this time i can go forty-eight
Drown myself in baggy clothеs just to sleep the hours away
And finally i won’t feel anything
It’s a war i guess i’ll fight alone
They don’t think it’s real unless you’re skin and bones
{chorus}
And here i am on the fucking floor crying in the bathroom
At the table staring at an empty fork like it’s a vacuum
Believe me i swear i’m okay, i’ll take up less space
God i wish it wasn’t this way
But i’m only seeing stars because i have to
Because i have to
{bridge}
Nothing gets you through pain like knowing it’s worth it
There’s no reward if you haven’t suffered for it
{chorus}
Won’t tell you that i’m on the fucking floor
Crying in the bathroom
At the table staring at an empty fork like it’s a vacuum
Believe me i swear i’m okay, i’ll take up less space
And god, i wish it wasn’t this way
But i’m only seeing stars because i have to
Can’t tell you that i’m only seeing stars because i have to
Because i have to