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RM Beholder — 17 Club
Artist: → RM Beholder
RM Beholder — 17 Club — lyrics
{verse 1}
I don’t even know how to live my life
I’m the king, this is my kingdom, but it crumbles even if i try
And i could be lying but it doesn’t seem any better cause i’m too shy
To get out & feel better, i could go & dive but i’d rather add on when i cry
I’m surprised i’ve made it this far
To go from lego’s & feeling like a star to scars, guitar & driving a car
I’m so tired of being tired
I don’t wanna go through the day but time is slipping away
{chorus}
Sometimes i don’t even want to be me
But i still hope i at least get 1 more week
Am i asking for too much?
Maybe at least 1 more second?
{verse 2}
Lifе is tiring but i’m still willing to wake up
17 winters, so many ideas but i’vе attempted mostly none
The passion’s still there but how can i be so scared?
Life is unbearable, i’m really full, i’m through
Of my parents thinking i’m not full
Say i have no meat on my bones
I don’t even eat meat, then they say i eat nothing
When almost every night, i stuff my face to feel happy
It’s sad to think my family doesn’t bring me happiness
They’ve done so much but they don’t make me laugh & give me stress
I have to work everyday now even when i’m not at my best
Which is never but i still wish i could rest
I don’t want to go on, but i know i’ll be okay
It’s just these teenage school & work thoughts in my mind
On the other side, i know it shines
But i’d rather hide, & in your mind be put to the side
{chorus}
Sometimes i don’t even want to be me
But i still hope i at least get 1 more week
Am i asking for too much?
Maybe at least 1 more second?
{outro}
Trust me, i suck but i accept it
Happier back then but knew nothing, i guess there’s still no difference
Trust me, i know i’ll be okay
But my future lies ahead, past dead
18 now, scared of what’s ahead
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