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Alex George — S.T.
Artist: → Alex George
Alex George — S.T. — lyrics
{chorus}
I wish my mind would shut itself down, down, down
From these suicidal tendencies
I wish my mind would erase itself now, now, now
From these suicidal tendencies
{verse 1}
These suicidal thoughts keep on eating at my brain
I’ve got nothing left to lose, nothing left to gain
And if lonely’s a taste, then it’s all that i’m tasting
If life is a waste, then it’s all that i’m wasting
My mind’s like a mansion, a room for every emotion
My mind’s been spiralling, drowning in an ocean
I’ll go to one of the rooms and lock the door behind me
Tossed away the key, don’t bother coming to find me
The room that i went to is the one full of hatred
I’ve been through so much shit, i’ve been humiliated
Staring out the window thinking, «how could i end it?»
The meaning of my life, i couldn’t ever comprehend it
My life is full of regrets, my mind is full of grief
But i don’t wanna die, i just need to get some relief, yeah
{chorus}
I wish my mind would shut itself down, down, down
From these suicidal tendencies
I wish my mind would erase itself now, now, now
From these suicidal tendencies
{verse 2}
I have been cheated on and now my heart won’t mend
I feel like pain and stress have got me running to a dead end
I can’t escape all the things that i’ve been feeling daily
I can’t escape all the thoughts that got my mind feeling hazy
No matter how bad it gets, i’ll always try to persevere
No one knows that all the things i feel are so severe
If i punctured my lungs, then i would still breathe
And if my hope was taken away, then i’d still believe
And i’m hearing all these voices every single day
The demons keep on talking, they won’t ever go away
Almost ended my life once because of what they say
Well, ha, a lot more than that, those memories are on replay
Everybody takes the piss out of me, wish i could just disappear
The one to end my life? allow me to be the one to volunteer
{chorus}
I wish my mind would shut itself down, down, down
From these suicidal tendencies
I wish my mind would erase itself now, now, now
From these suicidal tendencies
{verse 3}
Just wanna drown in all of my sorrows, all i feel is loneliness
So i’ll cut myself for fun, i have no more holiness
I’m depressed once again, so i’ll torture my mind
I’m thinking again, «is there any hope to find?»
Been thinking of all these suicidal thoughts
I know it won’t help, but i wanna do more shots
If you take a look inside my mind, you won’t wanna be around
I have a dark side, so i don’t ever deserve a crown
Nobody could ever hate me as much as i hate me
So many people in my life have betrayed me
Looking at myself like, «you ain’t nothing but poor, you’re weak»
Talking to myself like, «your mind ain’t nothing but bleak»
In my life, i need a lover that i can dream and think about
But i doubt i’ll ever get one, yeah, i’m so full of doubt
But i write all of these songs as a way for me to cope
My songs, to me, are a symbol of hope, yeah
I write all of my songs to help those who relate
And the ones drowning in the darkness feeling like it’s a little too late, yeah
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